Deep Sleep

It’s like I was under a spell, that my world stopped turning, I fell into a deep slumber. But then the moment I wake up, many things had changed. My friends had grown up, people have moved on and they are going forward. Yet, here I am stuck neither in the past or the present. Just like I fit in a crack…in a system that I do not know if I truly belong in this world… What did I do in those two years that they were moving and growing?

I was in a dream...Maybe… I was on the lose to search myself, to discover what is there beyond me… But I didn’t realize I wasted too much time in an effort to pick up my broken spirit, to rekindle the passion, to make me whole again… I wanted to do so much that I ended doing nothing… Now that I already woken up… it is difficult to join the current again and act as if I wasn’t forgotten.

The good thing I had from my sleep and for being lost was that I knew myself better. I know my limits, that there is nothing that could stop me.. That dreams indeed do come true… It was a journey where I stumbled, fell, died and live again to watch another sunrise, to experience more of it and realize that life has a lot to offer…

All I should do is embrace it... Forget that I fell into a deep slumber, and make the best out of every minute.. Stop the self pity, and condemning myself with the so called righteous standards that the society imposed. It is not their life, it’s mine to experience, every sweet and tormenting steps…. At the end of the day, we only have ourselves along with the things we learned and our Creator. Who neither judges nor critic…